Life Update (2)

 I haven't used this blog for a long time, and I kid of quit using my "From California, with Love" blog, so now I'm going to start using this blog as an outlet. Sometimes, I wish I could write things on my tumblr, but there are people that follow me that I don't want knowing my business.

I'm so happy lately with having my boyfriend. Before he started work I feel like I would take him for granted, as well as get annoyed that he was constantly wanting to talk to me, but since he started working and is gone from 10 am until 7pm, I'm starting to miss him! I wish I could get his attention back, but I don't want to feel suffocated again. Today was the cutest with him! He opened my mail with me on Skype and I love seeing his facial expressions. He showed me everything I sent too, because I forget what I send him sometimes. Everything I send or make everyone is adorable. He liked my Polaroid too and I made a joke about him putting it in his wallet.

Ariel and I have been putting together Alanna's birthday gift and it's so fun. I love doing creative things. We also went to get paint chips from the store so I can do creative projects with them. I picked out a lot of pinks and peaches I noticed.

Besides that, I've been seeing my nutritionist. I have to see her once a month if I want to get my gastric bypass surgery in the summer. I'm still weighing (HA) my options about whether or not I want to get it. The other people that have had weight loss surgery my age are happy with their life now, and don't regret it... not that I'm not happy with my life, there's just a lot of things that would be easier without lugging around 344lbs.

Life Update



Happy Valentine's baby

The past month has been filled with realizations and exercise. I've been realizing who I actually can call a "friend" and I've been spending all the free time I have exercising and eating healthy. I'm on a healthy diet right now too, learning how to make a lot of my food now and incorporating a lot more vegetables into my meals. I've also participated in a project called "The Secret Pen Pal Scavenger Hunt" and there will be a blog post about it on my other blog Feb 5th. I had a lot of fun looking for items and getting my package from my partner!! Also, I've been doing a book project for Michael and I'm not really sure if I want to send it to him or give it to him when he visits... I'm still deciding.

 

New Year, New Me

With the new year here I've decided to follow it along with some new resolutions. With Christmas passing I received three planners. I want to use one of the planners for figuring out what I'm going to do with both this blog and my DIY art blog. One of my inspiring bloggers just redid her whole blog and seeing it gave me the motivation I needed to start having a functional blog. Stay tuned!

Thanksgiving disaster

This Thanksgiving we had my parent's friends over and my sister's boyfriend. It was 8 of us and it was constantly loud and crazy. I honestly didn't enjoy Thanksgiving very much. I had to spend the entire time with this guy that's 28 years old, Deaf, and has a mental disability that makes him not communicate with anyone. I originally had took up the ASL class because I wanted to communicate with him. Now that I have a year or so under my belt, I try to converse with him and he just ignores me. To make matters worse, he got comfortable on my bed, and then put his feet on my bed (since he was laying on his stomach) with my new covers, and then when I had left to help with the dishes he had his shoes and socks off and had his bare gross feet on my pillows. While we were watching a movie, to keep him entertained, he was farting all over my bed and it was just disgusting. When him and his mother finally left, I threw all my sheets off my bed and sprayed the hell out of my bed with disinfected spray and odor eliminator, and put new sheets on my bed. How rude, and I was so uncomfortable I couldn't bring it up to him before......

  I've been feeling a little down today, I think it's because I'm missing the person that I love most. All I can think about is the moment he sees me at the airport. I'm so nervous but mostly excited for it!! I can't wait. To try to stop feeling lonely, I made a polyvore set about what the outfit I would wear to see him would be. Granted, most of it I don't own/ would eventually buy, but it was fun looking at cute outfits. I'm most likely going to be making more polyvore sets, now that they started doing a 'home good' section.

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  I'm also the type of person that would find out what hotel room we were staying at early, check in early, and decorate the room for him :x Candles, yummy food, a cheesy banner, and I would totally put rose petals on the bed. I'm such a dork, but I would want everything to be special for him.

I've spent this weekend hanging out with a new friend. I've been spending time walking, eating, and cooking healthy. Today, I ended up going to the local farmer's market and then I took a driving trip down to the beach. It was really nice out today, the weather was nice and wasn't too hot or too cold. During the beach photos that were taken, I was talking to my love bug telling him how badly I wish the two of us were sitting on the wooden bench I was sitting on. I also took 2 polaroid photos, except one of the photos were too bright (because of the foamy bright waves), and the other I plan on sending him for Christmas! This weekend, I also found a cute headphone stopper from some clothing and accessory store. I love everything hello kitty, and you got to admit, it matches my case pretty well too! I plan on spending the rest of my Sunday organizing my room, getting laundry started, and if I can beat the sun, I may start painting a wall.

Birds always make photos cuter

 I've been trying to not neglect this blog. In the past few days there's been some family issues going on. To try to feel better I took a chance and got out of the house for some shopping! First, I ended up @ Starbucks. The employees will never spell my name right, goodness! I was going to get a drink in the holiday red cups, but I ended up getting a blended drink, later, I ended up at Burlington Coat Factory, and bought a new comforter and pillowcase set. I feel like I've been searching for the 'perfect' sheets, and I finally found them.

I also have gotten some time with my love! It's hard to go an entire day without hearing from him. He's really been able to keep me sane during these past few days. I know he has his own life, and the fact that he's spending some time with me, it makes me smile :)